Sunday, April 13, 2008

Stop all this, fucking get things RIGHT

PLEASE GET THINGS RIGHT!
Thanks for the support to people who support me. I mean, each side has their supporters, no one i will blame.

Yes, settle and end this relationship is what WE want, so please, don't message me things like I still love you from far and watch over you from far ( yes, I feel so much better, but still, it will make me fall even harder ) when you know I will get softhearted. If you people supporting him by thinking that he wanna make me forget about him like what he blog about, but why still give me false hope telling me all that? to make me fall deeper??

People just support me, I can choose to do what I really want to do. At the same time, DON'T ASSUME that I call my friends or my sister to blog, message or call Vin* to just knock some sense in him.

You also don't ASSUME. Don't say that i went back to my ex boyfriend when you don't even know whats happening. If you really wanna know the truth, I will say, I am NOT calling him or even contacting him. Can't he read my blog and yours? He is also friend of my friends, so? what makes you think that I CALLED HIM TO SCOLD YOU OR... WHATEVER?? wake up ur idea please.

From your old blog "Feel so dumb suddenly. My brother even tells me after all the things she write in her blog and exaggerate everything she said I still so dumb and so thick skinned going back with her. I never blame her from anything she say, because it was true"
So what i blog about, its exaggerating or is it true? Make up your mind.
So to you I am good at words and gain pity, so if i am trying to exaggerate, how can it be true at the same time??

I've got so much to explain. After reading Derence*s blog. To Derence* I really don't think i need to spend your brother's money, money issue, I didn't really bother, but since you blog it this way, I need to voice out. Yes, your mum's dinner and everything, I always reject it coz I hate to owe. But to please your bro, I did really everything. He will get angry if i don't go his way. I know at this point of time, he won't admit. But if you wanna say your bro spend money on me, so, you are saying, cig, drinks, food, I didn't spend any on him, you knows that I've got only very lil allowence I still spend. None of my EX needs me to pay for his food, drinks when we are out. What you see is just with your family. So to you its right to let a women spent money on a man rather then a men should spent money on his love ones? I didn't wanna dig out this issue really.
If I really care, I will dig out my diary to read about out`ings and recall. Well, even we are not together, I need to treat him, when he've got no money, I spend. I know in this relationship, money is not really an issue coz, to me, i really thought that we both spend on each other willingly. But seems that its wrong. When he got money, he will pay, if I've got the money, i will. So what is this about?
And ya, surprises, if he does that everyday, yes, that point of time i didn't reject coz i am happy to see him, but it isn't surprises anymore when he does that everyday.
But that night, I was too tired to entertain. so, i off my phone and he called my house and LIED. And I asked him not to come that day coz I know we are both very tired.
So, I did my part, what he do??

OK, my blog is so heaty now. I will cool it down with pictures that people really cheer me up =D
Thank you to my 2 boss`s, Relfy*,Vanessa* who called, Jevonne* and Yvonne* who came to me and bring me out at night. Gigi* my sis. And supporters on my tag. Just wanna thank everyone who help me go tru this =DD much LOVESSS

Ok, this was my idea and both of them didn't know a thing. So hard to ask both of them stick out their tonguez at the same time.

Was too bored. And I look so crazy..


Yea, both heartbroken. =(



Don't know how to reply to tags but will, what i wanna reply i think I've already reply in this post.
Don't try to put me down. And thanks to people that really understands.
Never thought of I will have such a wordy post.

Think it might not be love but need.

Friday, April 11, 2008

explaination.

Lazy to even explain. People, just judge for yourself, adding on to what you all usually see in me and him. Know us well before judging.
Anyway, he came to knock on my door again, from afternoon till donno when. He msg the queen, my sis, with a lot of things, telling them bad things about me like I smoke with him and what i did with him and everything.
Luckily i told my family everything and they know about it. So nothing wrong but i know my sis thinks that he is trying to dig out shit.
Forgetting what my sis reply him, he said this scary thing"don force me to do it in a hard way" or sth.. So we decided to report it to the police, coz nobody knows what he will do as he is scary enough to.. well, friends know what he can actually do.
Police ask if I wanna charge him, but well, again.. another chance

Questioning myself, why am i so stupid?
there is no tears anymore.
but i feel so heartbroken.
I feel that he never love me before
cos he feel nothing after this
he even told me its his fault to even make me like him at the 1st place.
Whats this?

Sorry, don't feel like thinking. Sorry for not replying to tags, sorry for not blogging photos.

Seriously, someone help, i am dying

I find no reasons to forgive you anymore, no reasons to tolerate anymore.
In additional, you made my family hate you and thinks that you are problematic.
Tell me the reason to grant you another LAST CHANCE again???????
You called at this time, 3am going to 4, call my house coz I off my phone (sometimes I need this kinda small breaks, that you never give me before) Coz you will question me why I off my phone after that night if I did. You called and tell the queen that I left my IC with you, you didn't think that she will scold me if I really forget about my IC? you know when you called and tell her that, she immediately ask me about it? and of coz, donno whats happening, I show her my ic.... And you started msging the queen and my sis that you said wrongly and its a name card which is totally stupid to pass me a name card at this hour!!! Who on earth will think that its right to do this? of coz both of them start to think that you are problematic..

Sorry, i really try my very very best to pull tru all the rubbish you gave and hold on to this relationship, but you gave me no way out. At this point, no matter how much I love you, I can't help it but be so mean and leave you alone. for once and for all coz I eally have no way out anymore.

Sorry to his friends that always thinks that our relationship is so perfect, its not what you really see, just that you don't know anything at all. Listen to both sides, ya its difficult.

I really need someone to cry on. its so hard to pull tru all this.. someone help please???
I really love you, but what can I do?
People will start telling me, if you love him, just be with him, don't think about anyone else.
Please, think in my shoe and you will know.

I hate it when I feel helpless


i am crying. someone please help
Soft hearted. Finally know whats really hurts
.

Melissa*s bday celebration cum secondary school gathering

Just came back from CCK*s house for secondary school gossips. Really love the time with them. That is the time I can really know what is beinging myself.
(Kinda tired but after bathing I don't feel like sleeping. Anyone has any idea how can i tune back my body clock?)
Really love hanging out with them. We chat about stuff that is just so pure. don't have to really think a lot to answer their questions. It just us. Don't know if they think in the same way too.

Well.. Pictures will be up tomorrow!!
Too tired to do anything. But, I AM NOT SLEEPY AT ALL! HOW!!!???

Capricorn:: Really so boring?
Eunice*:: I am viewing yours too =D
Jevonne*:: Ya. i believe its that kinda things too
LiKuan*:: I can't keep it for long. HAHA. Cute right!
Kelly*:: Actually the day before I've got the hand-foot-mouth, I wanted to call you, coz i was at your house area!
YiFan*:: Omg. Miss you soooooooooooo much!! Ok!! Really gotta meet up soon!!!

Today wasn't totally happy. Some stuff I should have given up on. Some stuff I think I shouldn't be thinking about. Something not worth my time. Something not worth my anything. Think about it, sorry to say.. its really a burden.
I really hope i can finished this up, I don't wish to carry on anymore. Its too tiring...
Please, respect me, will you?
If can, I've stated clearly.. don't call and ask, its tiriing enough...