why is it this way. can't control my tears anymore

HA!
don come to this boring blog anymore
only when i turn to become a more INTERESTING person den come back ok?
or else i m wasting you time here

think won't be blogging?
or maybe i will blog the next minute
i don even know wad i want
i don think its my moodswing control`ing me

aya
wadever SHIT

my best is not enough for him
its my best
how?
should i do sth?
should i let him go to find someone

who's best is more den enough for him

i am lucky
so he is UNLUCKY

ya ya
nabehcheebye

reply to tag

actually i have lotsa things to blog
but ya
somehow forget
will blog wadever i rmb

i nv believe in anyone but i choose not to believe in anyone else

and i just wan a "no i did not backstab"
and now it turn and become i m the one who backstab
and since when i say u backstab?
when i don even know u did when only z**** tell me sth is wrong between both of us
if tt thing is fake, ya.. they can happily fuck own ass
and if the person wanna break us up, for? and, why me?
actually ya, don need to think already
people around me tell me, its not worth it
and yup
i am happy this way and u r happy too
it will just be memories
and will not rmb how we ended this
and abt the disgusted face
i don even know when i give fuk`ed face or wad lan jiao face
aya.. just, maybe tt person is talkin about u and sth else
den i give lan jiao bin
xD
nvm nvm
all the best to u and ur happy life now =D

reply to tag
SLOW*::ya. i love crying_and i hope u love me more den he does
crystal*::huh? when? i nv see u.. y nv call me?
relfy:: ya.. but.. nvm 4get it..
Li Rong*:: thanks ^w^
mabel*:: update`ed =D
nahyieve::thanks..really glad to have all of u here
minmin*::will explain to u when i see u ya? =D
kelly*:: thanks..!

Friends

went to friendster and view huiMin*s profile and photo
suddenly
feeling very weird
i saw a pic which was taken on my b'day
huiMin* and Jevonne* giving my birthday kiss
i really miss the days
i wonder wad i was told is true
but even if its liddat
we was still very good friends
even ppl talkin behind us
we will talk to each other and confront tt person together
but now
i know wad happened only someone one tell me
always hope this thing will go off when i don step into it
but i think things r getting worst
ppl r telling me more and more
choose not to believe but
there is also no explaination
only an expression on ur face
an expression tt brings me disapointment
wad can i do?


sometime i really feel useless
when i see someone i care is locking herself in her room and cry herself to sleep
i know there is sure sth u doesn't wan anyone to know
but i really wanna help

do u know how i feel now

SCIENCE PRATICAL

today had our pratical prelim
i fail my bio by 1 mark
i bet i can't pass the overall
coz i nv see the last page of the physics paper
reach block80 for chicken wings at 8.30
b4 tt i ate breakfast prepared by mommy
after skool arounf 2 ate lunch with li kuan*
feeling so FAT now

mommy was at home when i reach home at 3
she hurt her eye
she poke her own eye and.. donno why
poor mommy
it hurt like hell
she hurt the comea of the eyeball
=(((((

anyway
my sis is goin to Zouk tml
ladyz nite!!
donno why my sis don go clubbing with me
but i wanna go with her badly!
wonder how she look on the dance floor
awwwwwwwwww

hee!! i love the count down board!
i found it at soonYan*s blog
=D

reply to tag
baoYu*::thanks for the tag! =D
mabel*:: thanks!!!
crystal*:: haha.. i will.. thanks
penny*:: thanks!!
nice know`ing u all were here
a BIG SMILE for all of you :D

Happy 2nd monthary <3

Happy 2nd Monthary
actually is meeting darling today
but.. too bad he is not free
=(( kinda disappointed

but
oh well

O LvL english oral exam

today after skool was my english oral exam
can give myself a "not bad" =D
nv really get stuck

in class was SH*T
i nearly slap someone =x
i know she say it for my own good
but also.. aya.. forget it

had a nice time with soonYan*
hua hua hua here and there xD
mood wasn't tt bad after all

ups and down
came back home and called darling
hmmm.. nvm

reply to tag
crystal*::thanks ;)
nahyieve:: yup.. sure!
daMAO*:: why?
soonYan*::thanks for coming to my blog =))))) and i blog`ed!
muscleWOMEN*::=) can't wait for the friday to come

thanks for coming
alto its just a few of u
but im really very glad
u all are the reason for me to blog

darling is in a bad mood?
nv call me for the whole day
=(

sorry my darling.. nv felt so bad before

reply to tag
nahyieve::BOO back ! xD
ke lian
no one come to my blog

nv felt so bad before
sorry darling
won't shout at you ever again
wasn't in a good mood and my darling is trying to ask me nt to think anymore
and i shouted at him

i wasn't feeling so bad about the things tt had happened in school
but felt so bad for shouting at him
=(
sorry
ilu

argh
darling
save me

mouth shouldn't exercise so much

back from school

sometimes i think i shouldn't talk so much
i learn sth call shut up
sometimes when u state the fact
people will think u are just jealous and wanna talk bad about who and who
ok
nvm
its over
wad i've said is said
i know i won't regret saying coz im not in the wrong
i won't wanna care anymore

=) somehow wanna ask my muscleWOMEN* out
but i m tired!!
if u see this, just to inform u
i wanna ask u out on friday xD

things we DO in class

class was bored today
i just don catch wad teacher is teaching
can't concentrate
things just don get into my head
so we decided to go crazy in class
we draw on each other,eat,talk
someone even cut my hair xD



thats from our Ferdy*

NG WEE YANG* cut my hair!!

draw and draw and draw
nv see us so "yong gong" when having art lesson xD


take a look at this
before we are together
we've changed
a lot!!
from bad to worst=x

but i still love you a lot a lot!!

quizzzz.. i m bored... i miss my darling

i m freaking BORED!!

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you! People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

What Do People Envy About You?

xD

You Are 72% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

haha..

You Are 8% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing. You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.

How Shy Are You?

true

Your Body Image is 24% Unhealthy, 76% Healthy

You're body image is quite healthy, though you're sometimes a little bit too hard on yourself. Chances are you've got a rockin' body - so enjoy it!

How's Your Body Image?

good good

You Have Low Self Esteem 48% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues. It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

alamak

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

i m more to a MAN

Your IQ Is 85

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Average Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

wahlao.. so low.. ah HA.. i m stupid

You Are 40% Gross

You're a tad gross, but generally you're a clean, hygienic person. No one can be perfectly clean all the time, and it's better to be human than a neat freak.

How Gross Are You?

xD

You Are: 70% Dog, 30% Cat

You and dogs definitely have a lot in common. You're both goofy, happy, and content with the small things in life. However, you're definitely not as needy as the average dog. You need your down time occasionally.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

wah.. shocked

You are a Blanced Babe!

You're direct and to the point, but never dramatic You've got the confidence to speak your mind to anyone But you leave the theatrics to Hollywood Level headed and emotionally stable, no wonder everyone loves you

Are You a Drama Queen?

woohoo!!

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 40% Good and 60% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

more to the bad side =(

He is a Man

You have yourself a perfect gentleman and a total keeper Your guy almost always acts appropriately He's probably even very upstanding when you're not around There's no boy left in your boyfriend - he's all man!

Is He A Boy or a Man?

haha.. coz for me he is perfect =X

You Go For Body!

Forget the professor, you'd rather go for the hottie who didn't even finish high school. You prefer a guy who's exciting, a total flirt, and extremely attractive. So what if he'll break your heart? At least he'll look great doing it!

Do You Go For Brains or Body?

wahlao.. no loh xD

You are a Cautious Red Light Dater

Your dating motto is "slow and steady wins the race" You prefer a long courtship to a whirlwind romance This doesn't mean that you are anti-social or cold You just need time to warm up to the right guy You're online dating style? You are likely to take your time on your profile Then, wait and see what kind of guy emails you As you get more comfortable, you meet more people.

What's Your Dating Speed?

hahaha

You Are 56% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out! Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

How Bitchy Are You?

haha..

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

Do You Need a Man?

b'coz i`ve met him

Doesn't Look Like Cheating, But Be Careful

Chances are greater than not that your guy's not cheating... But there's always the possibility that he's a pro at covering things up The best thing you can do for now is listen to your intuition If it seems like he's cheating, he probably is... unless you suspect every guy you date

Is He Cheating On You?

eh.. =((((((((

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

my darling say PUI.. wthhhhh
wadever loh!

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Sexy Waves

What Hairstyle Is Right For You?

nice!!

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

yeah1! i love it !!

You Are 48% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie. You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

How Girly Are You?

why m i always boyish?

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Are You Ready To Get Married?

=D

You've Got Guys Lined Up Around the Block

While your little black book isn't as thick as Paris Hilton's... You get the most dates of any girl you know It's your whole five star package that attracts men - Your looks, your charm, and your ability tie a cherry with your tongue.

Are You Attractive?

ah HAHA

You Should Get A Butterfly Tattoo

Girly and funky For you, tattoos are a thing of beauty - not toughness

What Tattoo Should You Get?

i want one!!!

reply to tag
soonyan*::thanks!!
crystal*::thanks.. can try to help u make 1 =)
daMAO*:: coz u r in my LOVE list already wad
relfy::eh?
wayne*:: u say one ah! LOL
meiLing*:: thanks.. u tc too !

new blogskin, lov`ing him more and more each day

darling is better already =D

today is a boring day
sleepy day
i nv take my nap!!
after skool have extra lesson with jevonne* esteen* qiBin*
they sure think tt we r damn noisy. HA!
not in a very good mood today
having stomache and backache


got my chinese 0s result on friday
gonna retake =(
score badly C5
after tt
both stress`ed girls went to buy chocolate
and prepare to go out with muscleWOMEN*
met her at cityhall and leave to newton
at the end we nv go out
she went home and i went to look for darling

boss drive us home and lights off !!
early in the morning[[saturday]] he went to work and i m still sleeping xD
until donno wad time i wake up and study a bit
think he called his mom to buy lunch for me, paiseh sia x/
after awhile boss came down asnd ask if i m goin down to the shop
i didn't follow their car and went down alone
accompany darling back and went to his cousins house for party
had a long chat with his god-father and he gave me his number saying if he bully me, i can call him[[better be careful darling xD]]
my darling was kinda drunk
chat with one of his auntie who wanted him as his god-son badly
his family is really nice C=
i believe my boyfriend is going to be a very successful person
[[sunday]]my darling cooks real nice !!
even the maggi he cook taste super duper delicious
he cooked his carrotcake for his uncles
and of coz i wanna try la xD
damn delicious ok!!
after tt his parents came back and just nice we were going off
took 154 1/2 way i wanna go toilet =x and we stop at a MRT station and took MRT back
on the way back, we chat alot
at tt time i feel tt he can be my best friend as well as my boyfriend
actually we always talk back to each other
but, ya, he is always the one who give in to me xD
simply just make me love him so much YYY
pictures!

me and muscleWOMEN* zi Lian king and Queen xD


baby Shea* looking at my darling drinking siao`ly

acting xD


my boss look so cute in the pic right? xD
don look as if he is drinking

reply to tag
crystal*::thanks! haha.. update`ed
daMAO*:: coz i know u won't come often wad
Kat*:: thanks =)
soonYan*:: haha.. he is ok.. =D
Darling::Changed!!

i m utterly disappointed with ...
don ask me who is ...
i will tell you if i want to
luckily i've got my darling and muscleWOMEN*
they are my only hope in the world
i've pass all my hope and trust to both of u
don ever break it ok?
love both of u lots
YYY
won't allow any one of u to walk away from me
hope to get my huimin* back
den i will have 3 LOVE ones
i LOVE u all THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS much!!
also not forgetting
i LOVE my primary skool darling who is there for me too !!

his neck hurts, my heart hurts

darling met a car accident on the expressway with boss and lady boss
scare me
he hurt his back and his neck
poor thing

went out with my primary skool darlings
muscleWOMEN* with us too
watch *antBULLY
veryvery nice show
cute and meaningful
sorry for letting u all wait
oh ya! sorry to CK* for pangseh`ing u
went to PS to watch movie
den to heeren to take neoPrint
wanted to buy some earing from farEast
but its close when we reach
after tt went home with vampy* muscleWOMEN*
vampy* fell down on the way home
hope shes ok
she still can luff and call me to tell me it FUNNY tt she fell and everyone was like lookin at her
-.-
after tt went to have a chat with muscleWOMEN* till now
very very tired
gotta wake up at 7 tml
good nite!!

reply to tag
muscleWOMEN*:: wad kns?! lol.. miss u also la!! hope can see u tml C=

i donno why i don feel right
something is wrong
thanks for letting me feel better
thanks for everything
i really love u

I wonder what its like to not wonder about you.

guess darling is crazy playing his computer
ate Han's and was late

CHANGED!
I wonder what its like to not wonder about you
<3

reply to tag
crystal*::thanks =)
LiRong*:: you too!
wayne*:: i will
daMAO*:: LOL.. crazy.. but anyway, all de best !!

IMM trip with mummy darling sis

nv go to skool this 2 days
actually today prepare to go skool
while preparing
i don feel well
so stay at home and rest
after tt take the homework from CK*
and we went to IMM
met darling at jurong east
and we[[me mummy darling]] went to IMM to meet my sis
she was shopping with her friends
had a fun time
=D
will upload the pics soon!
2 more days i will get to see darling again!
date`ing my girls tomolo ^^

found out something silly
too childish i didn't wanna blog about it

are you...?

after looking at nahyieve*s blog
i decided to blog xD

You Are Super Spicy

You're a little bit crazy, a little bit naughty, and a whole lot of sexy. You go beyond hot - you set people's senses on fire!

Are You Hot?

ah HA!!

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

trueeee

You Are A Jealous Ex

You're not quite over your past, and you are hurt that your ex is moving on You're no longer in love, but you're not done with being pissed Jealous of any happiness that comes your ex's way, you still can't let go

What Type of Ex Are You?

ayo
i've let him go

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

eh??

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

haha.. ya

You Are a Super Flirt

You love to flirt, so much so that it gets you in trouble. In almost any situation, you find yourself flirting - even when it's inappropriate. You tend to embrace all flirting styles too.. from coy to sexy to playful to serious. And if someone flirts back, you'll crank it up even more!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

i don't xD

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

wahhh

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

hmm..

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Vanessa is your soulmate.

You truly love Joan.

You consider Elisa your true friend.

You know that Yvonne is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Xin Ling for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Yvonne is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Jie Ying is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Wayne is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Wayne changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Bee Er is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Bee Er has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

bee er* has a hidden internet romance?!?!?!

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

wah!
xDD

so fun!

attitude problem

yesterday i went back to the shop and get my pay
only see him for awhile
donno y miss him so much
i donno why i m giving him attitude
sorry
not feeling very well
will not blog unless theres someti to be blog`ed abt
only after my Os, i will blog daily again
byebye

reply to tag
meiling*::thanks =D
wayne*:: =)) i love u
jiaHao*: thanks!
yvonne*:: u dua me la!
daMao*::i will.. =) thankss.. sorry.. 4get to blog abt tt idiot

ok.. anyway
about this idiot
did u ever have any ex-boyfriend who gave u something and ask them back from u?
donno y i hate him so much
he is a fu*king gay ok!
disgusting
sorry.. i just freaking HATE this kinda AH GUA

darling,
sorry for my attitude problem
im try very hard to changed
sorry
i love u very much